Weight Issues

I just cannot figure out why it is SO hard for me to lose weight! I know how but if I ever cheat even a tiny bit, I blow it. I can't seem to get back on track. And when I'm feeling fat, I am ANGRY. I have got to learn to channel that anger into determination to get thin. Why isn't this working for me??? I HATE being fat, every time I look in the mirror I get super mad. I know being thin isn't going to make my RA go away or even get better, but I will FEEL better overall and that should be more motivation. Ugh!! So tomorrow I need to REALLY focus and get back under control. Lay off a lot of the sugar, starches and carbs and focus more on protein and BALANCE!! I just wish people would leave me alone about it. Every time someone bugs me about losing weight or asks how much I've lost now or tells me what I should eat or feels the need to give me their oh-so-wise advice (no one has ever told me anything I don't already know, by the way...I have a pretty extensive knowledge of diet/fitness...being fat doesn't make you ignorant)....anyway every time someone wants to discuss MY weight with me, it sets me back!! It does NOT motivate me, it makes me stuff my face. Really really wish everyone would just SHUT UP about my weight and leave it to me to do quietly. That'd be great. Back on track tomorrow. Move or not.

Something New

I have had a super hard time with my diagnosis of rheumatoid arthritis. Everything is harder and things are a little confusing right now. So I decided to blog about it! I know my friends are sick to DEATH of hearing about it...in person, on facebook, etc. So instead I will try to just blog about it and that way I can "get it all out" and follow my own progress at the same time. It just seemed like a good idea. Follow it, or don't. I have another "regular" blog about Malie's and my day to day stuff but I've been horrible about keeping it up! Hopefully I will get better.